it's april!

April's fine - new topics bury disappointment (or lack thereof) from results

I know I need to buck up because I really am under-performing.

I will. I can. And if I can't, I must.

Our class really is blessed with good teachers who care and make learning such a breeze.

For JCTs I want to give it my all and do justice to my class and our teachers(:

Who's with ;)

Today brought another bouldering training with J1s.

It wasn't any different from last week - Traverse, Boulder (new routes today!) followed by Medium PT (6x8 pull ups, 4x20 push-ups, 4x30 sit-ups, 3x1min plank) and punishments =( for climbing in the Barea without j2s around and not closing the store gate and being slow and being late.

Well I hope the J1s have it drilled in their heads now. We aren't sadistic seniors who enjoy punishing them, it's all a matter of discipline and safety.

Slight bouldering and moderate PT made my arms sore and fingers raw (it rhymes!), but as always, I LIKE. On Friday, I hope we'll get warmed up to Speed Climbing(: and highwalling in general!

words that starts with F

This is one of those days

Where exhaustion just gives in to emotion

Where being alone doesn't necessarily mean anything physical

Where all else seems not to matter, not one bit

Where history haunts.

And is victorious.

Am I really?

What ever happened to "I know me best"?

See what doubt does to people?

It eats me

from the inside out.

What I'd give to want what I have

Ha.

Joke.

emceetees

Not going to talk about them?

Hahaa, there's a part of me that's disappointed that I hadn't put in my best for the MCTs. And the other side (whom I'm going to abandon by the time JCTs approach) that reminds me how this was set to kill us and make us buck up for JCTs.

New studying pact: Basically just to stay back after school each day to do homework and do revision. TYS here i come;D

Besides studies, Climbing is still out of the question. I did "touch" and do minimal (really minimal!) bouldering @ CA today while the J1s were shopping for their first pairs of rock shoes. I wore a skirt to prevent myself from getting on the wall(: but yeah, the minimal climbing I did didn't hurt my back(Y) and I'll probably go for Physio on Tues.

For now, I'll stay away from Yishun and train the J1s to boulder.I can't say I'm unhappy because high-walls are so foreign to me now though it means I won't be able to be with my love :(

Social life update!

On Thursday after my last paper, Rachel, Vanessa, Yu Kwan and I met up for some chillax session. A rare treat we indulged in (since the last time we met up was in 2009!) We had lunch @ Vivo Marche which stretched into Tea. Pictures are due to be uploaded by Wed. I PROMISE! haha, we caught up with each other's lives and just took turns to tell the latest;D Christmas plus Birthday gifts were also exchanged, it felt odd but equally heartwarming. HEARTS!

Since it was pouring, I couldn't bring them to the Pinnacle so we just shopped around Vivo. Much of our remaining hours was spent at Daiso! And did i find treasure there!! I'm so making a trip back when I've moved(: Besides that, I bought a scarf and a headband from Forever21. under $12 =p

The day after, we met (AGAIN!) cos we realised we were all free. HAHA,initially the plan was to catch Alice in Wonderland. But we ended up shopping (without Rachel =( boo) Lunch at Manpuku followed by aimless walking. We found ourselves going crazy with more headbands at Montip and I bought two(; for training and casual use luh. Then I proposed that we three visit the Pinnacle since I had to help Dad paint the house. And they came!

Okay, i admit, we did nothing but CAMWHORE. hahahah, 100pictures in 2 hours. Yes, the epitome of camwhoring XD

Friends are the family you choose for yourself and I just wanna say that you girls are fantastic family members ;)

let's do this S

mixed feelings about recent events

1) AHSLC: turned out way better than expected. I went in feeling like I was doing SK/JM/AHS a favour and I would do the bare minimum. BUT HEY! i was so caught up with the camp's activities, the atmosphere and most of all the CAMPERS, that i hardly thought about the notes that lay untouched in my bag(: And as i was saying, i learnt SO much too.. talk about service learning ;)

2) studying for MCTs: ahh, motivated (just one more weeeeek!) yet slightly chill-ish since is just the MCTs. Sherwin's been helping me through Physics, Chem and Math :] yay

HEAL BACK HEAL

I went for the AHSLC briefing this afternoon gaining nothing but an injury.

We were on our way back from shopping for logistics at Sheng Siong and took a cab because we had a ton of things and it was pouring terribly. As we unloaded the things, my slipper (extremely unreliable) decided that i should slip and fall. On my back.

I couldn't stand for almost a minute, but i knew i had to get indoors. Thank God i managed to stand and walk. The pain was still bearable.

As I eased into a chair, I soon realised it wasn't a minor bump. The pain was sharp and piercing. I could not bend forward to a 90' angle.

I'm also thankful for the other camp officials who expressed concern and made me go to see a doctor. Yu Kwan, Soon Keong, Ray Seen, Lee Ying (thanks for the slippers and cash!), Jia-Min, Vanessa Chow, Chun Kit and Ka Hwee.

Apparently the doc said it could be anything from a bad bruise/contusion or a minor crack in my bone. She gave me some pain relief pills and a cream for applying... I pray that it's nothing serious or long-term. I don't want to lose it all.

Not now. Not ever.