Okay, so it's 2 hours in to children's day, the end of my rest-break from mid, mid sems. And I can't seem to sleep. Maybe because I refuse to turn the comp off.
So quick update:
Well most recently (approx 48 hours ago) i was friggin killing myself. Panicked over too many things with too little time. Basically, I had to finish up both my theatre critique and psych paper, do up an English presentation, and study for PL2131 mid sem.
Everything just crashed and burned by the end of the day, cos I had no one to talk it out with. My phone died and bee was angry with me..multiplying that shit by a thousand times. Here's what summed up that crappiness : A kind stranger in the lift (who on seeing me with my super black face) asked/said "the day wasn't that bad was it??" (hahaha) and seeing Sher's shoes outside my house <3
So allswellthatendswell. That was me two days ago.
A month's wrap then?
School work's pretty manageable - if i have the discipline, that is. I shall vow to keep 2 hours a day solely on reading. And another hour on tutorials. Doesn't seem so bad right??
Climbing's getting better - I don't feel that dog eat dog world competitiveness. I think getting to know the seniors and our peers through camp made it all the more awesome. I'm still skeptical if it'd ever reach the state of closeness the TJCCC family was at. But i'm happy Jensen said he considers keeping us all. That really made my week :D
Life outside school - meh. not so much. I really really appreciate him for coming down to NUS like two or more times a week to spend time with me. Even though he doesn't talk much of his life, it just makes me smile. And i know how much he's doing this for me. For us. :D
Besides all of that...i guess the only thing i haven't really got used to is the loneliness? I cannot bring myself to SIT at a table without anyone around me to have a meal. Not that I haven't but I just don't like the feeling =( it's pretty depressing really. i don't consider myself to be needy, but lunch alone, to me, is just unbearable. I can shop alone, study alone, walk to class alone, BUT not sit at tutorial/lecture alone and EAT alone. Sorry.
So if you ever do see me looking lost at the deck (i'm more like looking for peeps than for people) please invite me to join you.
HAHA. i wonder how many of you think i joke.
Well, that's all for tonight. HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY
P.S, did i say i'm EUPHORIC about the fact that my PL mods' mid sems are over with?
