(SLEEP) over

It's been a while.. I told myself I would blog, so I'm here to fulfil my promise(:

The concert I attended with Jason and Nicole wasn't as much fun as I hoped it would be. Probably cos the choreographers had very deep meanings behind each performance and I honestly wasn't in the mood for much thinking.

Anyhow, I enjoyed their company and met up with Debra, Eleanor, Aunty Sally and Mi Chelle too.

Jason learnt to plan ahead (what to wear) and us three will definitely be going out to catch a concert again(: yeeaaaa?

With my weekend burnt from PW and Dance Reflections: The Next Wave, I started to plan ambitiously for the weekdays. So far, I pretty contented with my progress, though it's soon I'll start regretting that statement. I'm somewhat finished with writing my own notes for content-subjects (leaving Oscillations&Waves; Carbloxylic Acid Derivatives; MC&Oligopoly, Inflation, Labour and Wage determination)

I plan to finish 'em by Wed.. and if all goes well, start chiong-ing revision papers. I mean. That thick stack of past year papers has to be put to use.

Missing climbing badly, I find myself reading the high-wall routes during morning assembly..But, we'll all be in for a treat in slightly more than a month's time when ClimbOn! takes off(: can't. wait.

As I type this post, my eyelids are being forced open because mummy won't let me sleep until i've had dinner. Why am I so tired...?

PW (sleep) over @ Mark's house. OP slides are now 80% complete, speeches need some trimming and we're basically almost ready for our OP rehearsal on Wed. Let me tell you, it wasn't easy getting the group to stay awake/focused/serious/productive. Someone sometime somehow, can just slip into lalaland without any sign. But work aside, I think I got to know my group members better? See them in their natural habitat(: I had fun (to a certain extent) but now all I need is rest cos I gotta feeling that my current state of sleep deprivation will take much recuperating.

I want to share about something that Ailing from Youth for Christ, aka YFC told me on Thurs. But it'll probably be a long post, which I'll keep for after Promos... when I've done sufficient research and I think I'm ready to talk to mummy. Keep me in prayer and all the best to those whose exams are underway.

Wherever you go, whatever the weather, always bring your own sunSHINE(:

Sick for the second time in a month.
Makes me question my immunity...
But mostly causes classmates to speculate whether or not I really am ill

They'll say I'm skipping school to mug
For the tests the next day.
While here I am, feeling lethargic, too weak to do very much
Here's what I did today, just so you know.

Last night @ 2000 hours - had dinner, feeling my sore throat getting worse
2100 - went to sleep, hoping to kill the bug by morning
2230 - woke up in sweat and decided not to attend school the next day
This morning @ 0900hours - woke up for breakfast, glad that i had no fever
1000 - played piano to lift my spirits and tried to do what you guys were doing (superposition) but failed cos the notes bore me
1200 - had lunch with daddy and jean
1400 - took a nap
1800 - voila! just woke up

so... if you think i'm "so gonna ace (my) tests tomorrow". think again.


anyways, the pic above is designed by TOOP [Temasek Overseas Outreach Programme] Cambodia and we're selling them to raise funds for our outreach activities like building wells and organising school activities. We're selling the notebooks at $5.00, please do support our cause! (: it'll be greatly appreciated<3

What's your intention of calling my girlfriend??

12pm @ ClimbAsia yesterday - I'm offically a partner in CLIMB(:
Zhengyu came along with me, and next to arrive was Andrew
The other TJClimbers (Jac, Rah, Calvin and Chris) came slightly later about 1pm
By then we'd done our stretching and some endurance routes

Had loads of fun just catching up with them,
Doing some cra-sy routes
Working on some techniques
Turning fingers sore and toes cramped

I think I need to be less fearful of roofs, more prepared (mentally) each time I get on the wall and to stop being negative/Valerie (haha! "I cannot! I cannot" >< )

Really looking forward to the next time I climb (: and for now, I'll just do weights and static PT. Can't let studying get to my fitness =p



NOT fat (haha!)
-ashleY

ps: pic above was taken 2 years back with mel&drew <3

Of tiny things, masks and new light

Sudden urge to fill this space up again

School has been what school is
Lagging behind tutorials, keeping awake during lectures
Except, with promos drawing near, there is an apparent air of tension -- once-upon-a-time slackers now picking up their pens, in a haste to copy notes which were blank from those 50 mins of la la land.

It's been quite a while since I penned down my thoughts, aside from my climbing journal that is. Pics are just a peek into the last month. I shan't talk more than 2 sentences about them though. I was thinking of diving into something deeper that Zheng Yu and I discussed about today.(Yes, we were studying. A bit at least)

Little things that were or were not to be cause big things to happen.
Though you may never see how something ended up to be like it is, it really stems from the tiny tiny details.
Like... entering into a Secondary School, choosing your first CCA, deciding on which stranger to start a conversation with, taking risks.
Think about it.

If I hadn't gone to AHS... I wouldn't seek the truth
If I wasn't an NPCC cadet, I would never have gotten to know him.
If I decided not to take the risk of having no PDPs, I would be in Air Weapons, not Climbing. And I would be so, so different.
If.

Hypothetical. Makes you think.

Something else led to us discussing how he knows her who knows him who once dated her friend. Really gives new meaning to "It's a small world after all"
It's a world where people put on masks.
Masks that hide their real identity.
Don't deny it, you have one on at the very moment.
That's how we're all similar -- we are in hiding.
The only difference is. How thick your mask is.
We want to impress that new classmate, outdo that competitor, feel accepted by the crowd.
We want to avoid lengthy explainations, shut our naggy relatives up, deny the unacceptable truth.
We incline towards the rich, the popular, the loud, the colourful, the good-looking, the lovable, the outgoing
So we do what it takes.

The thing with masks, though, it changes you. It changes the perception people have of you, which in turn changes how you react.

These masks change when we meet potential friends, enemies, lovers...giving rise to people seeing you in different lights.
Sweet and charming to one, a player and flirt to another.
Arrogant and bossy to one, full of leadership potential to another.

New light has been shed on old friends.
It will indeed change my view of them, but the light belongs not to me.

My light will depend on the mask I see.